“Too Loud” and "Too Jewish": Standing up for Gun Control
My friends sitting next to me in the library whispered: “Just do it.”
We were at a school open mic about gun control in the weeks following the Marjory Stoneman Douglas shooting. Lunch was nearing its end and I would miss my opportunity. All the other speakers had been older guys. They went on and on, spiritedly spitting statistics and saliva, mentioning Second Amendment rights and how it was all just “a mental health issue.” I was appalled by their statements, but who was I to take them on? I was a random freshman. They were upperclassmen, prominent leaders in the school.
The only person who I agreed with was one of my friends from theater, a fittingly lanky boy. We were the two organizers of our school’s protest in solidarity with Parkland. As he spoke at the front of our library, people looked down on him from the second floor, his crooked limbs practically dancing to his impassioned words. I agreed with his points. They were smart, but people didn’t seem to take him seriously. I needed everyone to understand just how important gun control was. I needed my peers to realize how grave the situation was. No one else was arguing my beliefs. I had an itch that I couldn’t scratch by staying silent. I made up my mind.
I got up from my seat at a table facing the impromptu stage, and I stood in line. A junior boy spoke before me. He was the president of our school’s political activism club, which was, in reality, an alternative name for “Republican students.” He also used the argument of mental health. He exited the stage and I stepped up to the mic.
“If it truly is a mental health problem, a bullying problem, then why is it straight white men shooting up schools? Why not the gay, female, fat, or black kids who get bullied for the way they are?” I asked.
The bell rang. Students filed out of the library and I went to grab my backpack and head to my world studies class, but the student who spoke right before me started yelling. He ran up to me, pointing his finger in my face, and started yelling about generalizations. Students all around us glanced back as they left the library. The principal went to him and started calming him down. As I left the library to go to my next period, a friend came up to me. She told me that she would never be able to do what I did.
Out of a dozen or so speakers, the fact that I was the only girl to voice my opinion on gun control seemed wild to me. Was I the only one who knew anything about it? Was I the only one who cared? Or was I the only one who didn’t care about scrutiny? I’ve been judged throughout my life for my actions and words, so it wasn’t new to me to be disliked for voicing my perspective.
I realized then that many girls can’t speak up for what they believe in because of the way we are viewed for doing so. Being the only girl to speak during that open mic made me understand just how scrutinized women are for having strong opinions. Out of all the speakers, I was the only one who was yelled at, heckled, and criticized publicly for sharing my beliefs.
I realized that day that, as long as I am a girl, people will view me differently for being outspoken. People will think that I’m “bossy,” “intimidating,” and “bitchy” when I say what’s on my mind because girls are supposed to be quiet.
I’m not the only woman to be scrutinized for being outspoken. Too often, women are told they are “too loud.” This is especially the case for Jewish women. We are stereotyped and criticized for having loud voices and opinions. I have been told too many times that I need to be quieter, keep my thoughts to myself, and stay in line. I have been told too many times that I’m “too Jewish” because I stand up for what I believe in. But I embrace my Jewishness, my loudness, and my refusal to be quiet.
Since that open mic, I have continued to be loud. I decided that day that no matter how loud someone is yelling at me or how loud they are yelling over me, I will not be silenced. I have kept my head and my hopes high, fighting for what I believe is right, no matter the pushback. I continue to fight for what I believe in: gun control, an end to climate change, women’s rights, and every other issue I am passionate about. I won’t let the world silence my female Jewishness. Instead, I will welcome it, and use my identity to make my voice heard. Like Queen Esther, who declared her Judaism at the risk of her life, I will refuse to hide who I am, and I will refuse to stay quiet.
This article was republished on Teen Voices.
This piece was written as part of JWA’s Rising Voices Fellowship.
How to cite this page
Hemley, Shoshanna. "“Too Loud” and "Too Jewish": Standing up for Gun Control." 25 October 2019. Jewish Women's Archive. (Viewed on March 26, 2023) <https://jwa.org/blog/risingvoices/too-loud-and-too-jewish-standing-gun-control>.
Yay for Shoshie, and yay for Queen Esther! I'm so proud of you and I can't wait for all the activism you will continue to do in the future.
Loud and proud! This is awesome!